Yesterday I completed a whole year at my current (first ever) workplace.
Yesterday I also had a sort-of breakdown about wanting to LEAVE this country. When I say leave I do not mean leave today, next week, or even next month. For me to leave in a year, there would be a need to apply to schools by the end of this year, and to think tanks by early next year. And for that I need to make up my mind now and figure out a plan now.
This job has its issues (and God Knows there are many), but this job has been a stepping stone, that has connected me to an entire pool of possibilities and has channeled my interests by letting me realize both- what I want, and what I definitely do not want. And now that I do somewhat know the direction, it is entirely upto me to step out of a comfort zone I always said I would never create, pack up and leave.
So here's to a year full of events/people that have on the one hand allowed me to find and define a comfort zone, and on the other hand made me hate the creation of that comfort utterly, leaving me in a state, where I am always looking to leave.
Yesterday I also had a sort-of breakdown about wanting to LEAVE this country. When I say leave I do not mean leave today, next week, or even next month. For me to leave in a year, there would be a need to apply to schools by the end of this year, and to think tanks by early next year. And for that I need to make up my mind now and figure out a plan now.
This job has its issues (and God Knows there are many), but this job has been a stepping stone, that has connected me to an entire pool of possibilities and has channeled my interests by letting me realize both- what I want, and what I definitely do not want. And now that I do somewhat know the direction, it is entirely upto me to step out of a comfort zone I always said I would never create, pack up and leave.
So here's to a year full of events/people that have on the one hand allowed me to find and define a comfort zone, and on the other hand made me hate the creation of that comfort utterly, leaving me in a state, where I am always looking to leave.
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